R.I.P Oliver.

You were the best of the best,
You were funny, cool, no where near a pest,
You brought a smile to my face,
You were like my lace,
Your tied to me, im not gonna let you go,
You didn't last as long, not much to show,
Through everything with me,
You'd know what to say, what to see,
Now that your gone, I miss you,
Your the lace, which is missing from my shoe,
Have a nice time up in the paradise,
Hopefully you earn lucky, get those lucky dice,
I wish I had waved you off, but your gone,
Just remember me, and our song.

Poems I found.

As the winter breeze comes along,
since that day the sun never shone,
Rescue me from this coldness,
i cant carry on, my hope is getting less and less,
as the lights are slung up, glistening in my eyes,
All the pain, all the darkness dies,
Let me be, let me be with the people I love,
show us peace, like the white dove,
I know being all together within one day,
Let it last long, never let it be may.

When you told me, those words that shone within me,
I knew you were the one, my heart, my key,
I didn't want to let go, though I didnt know what was to come,
I know i should of listened to her, the spoken words of mum,
I stood in the pain of whether you were coming, i stood tired and long,
Your like a record that keeps you hanging, my bad song or my good song?
You kept me waiting, you kept me hanging, dont bother hanging onto this heart,
With that train of love, mate this is only a cart,
Pray with me, you'd speak to me again,
I waited, never did you, will you, when?

my eyes are tired
of seeing all this pain, my eyes arent wired
drowning screaming in your pain,
I don't want to see you, I don't want your fame
Give me up, give it hard, hurt me down,see me fall
watch me hurl, into a black hall, a string with no ball,
how do i forgive you for all that youve done
i want to escape, i just want to run
hold your breathe, i dont need your words,
your no more, my snow white, with her beauty, with her nature birds,
whisper in my ear, that you are no more,
you nothing i will ever adore

*Grant me the wish that you'll be in my heart,
I love you so much, I know thats only the start,
Dont forget me,
Your my heart, your my key,
im like the sunshine which once lit,
you've got the mind, the beauty, you've got the wit.
I know without you, I won't be able to withstand life,
ill be close to giving up, close to the knife,
hold my hand so we can be close,
your my drug, your my overdose,
your my side affects, the one where im attatched to you,
you get me hooked on your beaty, and everything you do,
but your my good drug the one i dont want to quit,
all the other guys call you hot, fit,
I know you like beautiful, because you really are,
I'd get every train, every airplane,every car,
Just to see your face,
i know that this is your place,
join me in my wonderful dream,
I really like you, I'm really keen

I had my haircut

I wasnt expecting it to be so short.

Why. Pull the trigger, let the bullet go.

Pull the trigger, let the bullet go,
I have nothing to be proud of, I have nothing to show,
Curl up in a ball, listen to words been spoken,
I want to sleep, I want to forget, I don't want to be awoken,
Dim the lights, let me pass out, let me reach out,
Let me go! Let me die, oh how I wish I could shout,
Tears drop, why won't I drown?
My spirits were high, but I've gone down,
Set me free, let me go, I don't want to be in this place,
I don't want to see anyone's face,
Hide my face, I'm too shy,
Just let me die.

Mhm, I wrote it. I feel it.
Grandparents are all in hospital.
Friends are annoyed.
Great start to christmas

Hello, my loveys :). I'm in a good mood. Anyway, I woke up, had to walk to school in the cold. But I was passing Georgies and got a lift :) So that was good. Met Mitchell and Rupert at the buses :) Talked to them. Then I had maths, 'snoozefest' haha. Then I had history, watched some boring world war video. Snnooze. Then I went to the cafeteria, with Jessy when she bought me a slushie :) I love my friends. So i had to down it, because the bell went, realising i had a spanish oral, haha late :( whoops! then we watched a movie, well no one really did, me and emily took pictures all lesson ;) haha. Then we had the test, i had amazing notes, with a llama in it to remind me of the word llamo. :) Haha, then I had music and made a soundtrack <3 that was fun, then I had lunch, and I got ignored by sally (story will be later on) and I shared jessys milkshake :) mmm. Then I had graphics, WOOO COLOURING :D ;). I got home, from the cold, and had a big fight with my friend, because I have new friends. Seriously she is pathetic. Oh well. No girl's going to get me down well at least one I don't agree with baha. Anyway, this poem is for you, you know who you are. <3
My heart is all over you,
Your too much, I can't keep up with what you do,
I hope to see you again,
I don't want to be left in this pain,
My heart will always be called for my love,
I want your peace, like the white dove,
Lay with me during the night time,
'Till the hand reaches 12, all I can hear is your chime,
Hold my hand, so I can hold you forever,
Don't let me go, don't let me teather,
I can't let go, I can't not hold on,
Your my star, your my sun, I watched you shone.
I love you.
:)

Thursday 10th December

Nooo! I didn't eat my advent calender so I don't know what the day was today. I'm eating it now :D, but I got the hiccups :( . But anyway, today really good day, RPSE (the world around you, poverty, wars and stuff) was good, last lesson we had to make a political campaign about an issue, Kerys, Andy, Kelly, Ryan and I did animal cruelty, our logo was smoking monkey xD and we had to stand up and present our views in the lecture theatre, then everyone would vote which they'd run for, we found out who one, It was close by 3 votes, and our team won. Anyway we have to do a poster on children in poverty, which is pretty sick, since apparently a 6 year old can hotwire a JCB. 5 million children are in poverty, most of them don't go to school, live home alone with there brothers and sisters. Anyway then I had ICT and made my pacman game, which WORKS :D, I love it. Then we had break which was boring just walking around. Then BASKETBALL, oh what I've been waiting for, I was on fire ;) team captain. So that was an awesome game :D then english, sat there talking to emily, stealing Sophie's drink, I'M SORRY D:, and sharpies. Then we had lunch, slushie with emily who again I couldn't eat, Jesy gave me a christmas card, only knowing her for a day. Then err geography got a student award for my poem ;) and then we had to make a survival kit in groups for a hurricane "the little green bag company" and we won AGAIN :D so then I got another student award :). Boo , I was on FIRE. ;)
This picture today is my advent calender :)

Wednesday 9th December Bits I forgot.

Well firstly, I forgot to tell you, I ACTUALLY had to write wednesday as in wed-nes-day... ;)
Well this is what my feet actually looked like. Where ever that DARN picture is.
And first lesson, our teacher was totalled pissed at us for 'killing' the sub last lesson :L. Aha, so we had to act like drunk hobos at a wedding today :D . Then to get out of our spanish class we had to say one thing about spanish christmas mine was "some girls are called belén which means Bethlehem because Spain is a Catholic country :D" And err yeah ;), Also in science, I had a fuckin test, I didn't even know what to do :L I forgot to revise ;) oh so like me, so I sat there in the hall, watching everyone walk by ;D. But anyway, Graphics, nothing happened. I was in the cafeteria and, when I was going mad with the slushie, this girl kept staring at me THE WHOLE WAY THROUGH, god, it was freaky so I just looked away and i was like oh god o.o . Walked out eventually. Maths was bollacks, new teacher :L Who lived in London, his eyes are like so wide, they are scary, just like my canadian science teacher yay -.- .

Wednesday 9th December

Hmmm, what has this day been, GOOD :D. Wow, I'm glad I went back to school ;)
Well, I got to school, actually early :O, So I got in the classroom, and all I had was JAKE YOUR BACK, JAAAAAAAAKE :D , Jake jake jake, your back ;D. Anyway it was BOILING, I was dying in that heat.XD Anyway first lesson was err..Drama xD Fun times, we just messed up all lesson x]. Err then spanish, bleugh revision for exams. Then break hanging around with my stalker :'D whos actually the best. Jessy! American buddy :). And also Emily ;).Then science, where we had to sprint round the whole field, my shoes fell off, and so my feet got plastered in mud, no spare socks, hurray ._. . Anyway, I had graphics, normal :). Then lunch, nothing to eat D:, went into the cafeteria and shared a slushie with jessy, emily :) and i started shaking o.o and crap :L and they all laughed :'( Lol, but it was awesome, same tomorrow though :D. Then maths, ugh D:, then homee woopp!, Went round my mates and watched.. Russell Howard :) woop! I love him. ;) And that's It really, I can't arsed to explain this in all detail, I'm in a rush :)

8.12.09

I'm impressed, I actually can keep up to date with the days. Yes, I had help. I use my advent calender ;). I feel like a kid again :D. Mm, I stayed of home again, still wasn't with it. Anyway, I actually had a really good sleep, I slept till 10:30. I did nothing today, apart from go on webcam :D wow. I seem to look better when I'm ill... o.O My mums getting all stressed because its christmas, and now she has the flu...woospies. I hate it when parents say oh its not that bad! and then when they get it , they treat like shit, taking it not in mind that you do have it aswell. Urgh, parent's suck. Me and my sister have been on the hunt for food, my mum normally hides stuff, so we have to find it, its actually quite a nice game ;D. But anyway, we just had it today, we were too hungry, since ive had only a sandwich today): poor me. She came home with shopping though :O so we raided the bags. So now I'm just typing, hopefully when I go back to school, life will be more interesting :).

What, a bloody shit day, I'll say. I got up at 7, which is not normal for me, because I get up at 8 and run to school, as I have to be there at half past 8, when I live 40 mins away :) . Got up at 7, feeling down, my mum came in and asked "Do you want to go to school today" (as I was feeling ill yesterday)... Leaving a chance like that... to not have to bother with teachers who scream down your ear, because you forgot to do your english, is madness. So I said..."Mmm, I don't think I'll be able to". Aha :) So off my mum went to take my sister to school, I lay in bed till 11, I got up watched some casualty and went on computer. Wow, WHY IS NO ONE ONLINE, WHEN YOUR ILL. Because there all at school ._. , so I was stuck at home, talking to a chav girl, who half the time tlk lyke dis and this : wbebnjdhf?, How are you supposed to understand that crap. Anyway, I was bored, so I went downstairs and started wrapping my christmas presents, ever wondered what selotape tastes like ;) mine is apple flavour, but sticks like butter. So that spent about 1 and a half hours. My mum came home to me having sneezing fits :'D, and we decorated some of the tree(: oh the fun. And then my sister came home and so on, we did nothing interesting today :)

Me in general

Mmm, hi :)

May of guess my name is Jake Spence, I err obviously live in England, 16 :). I have 1 sister, my parents are divorced, my dad lives in bristol with his girlfirend, who I only see once a month if I'm lucky because my fucking step sisters, don't allow me to see him, because they want to spend time with him, whenever I do. Which I find incredibly UNFAIR. But whatever. My sister, is erm pretty damn cool :). I have 2 cats, mischief and cloud :) . Twinkle ran away a couple of months ago, or just got eaten by a fox, errhh, i hate those foxes. I like to skate a lot, sometimes bmx, I enjoy writing and shitttt. School is pretty bad, I only go for friends, there to awesome. Mm, all I can think of :)